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if you won't be here, i won't die but honestly i wish i would because living life without you will never be half good in solitude i lie alone i ask where art thou where art thou im frozen and so i yearn to see the sun feel the warmth that'll melt my core but without you night seems so long so long as if darkness won't end something must be wrong salvae me from seclusion be with me i plead end my longings be with me i plead marsterfully i fought only to succumb to failure i guess i can't win your heart your love but are all chances gone? tell me not if so spare my hope my prayers, my decimated dreams so i can still wait for sunshine no matter how long night is no matter how bold darkness had become still i'll wait for you to be with me to end my longings to hear my plead thus, with these words i live

Nail22: david! We’re back in black David: yes we are, damn it! Nail22: our blogger site has one hell of layout! David: hahaha! Nail22: I don’t know why we have to go through this over and over. Aren’t we sick of being broken? David: sa tingin mo? Nail22: we are David: haay… din a naman dumating si santa Nail22: yea, too bad David: ewan ko nail pero ganun ba talaga kahirap ibigay yung wish natin? Nail22: di naman siguro, baka naman busy lang siya, malay mo di na siya galit, malay mo, bukas may reply na siya… David: malay mo rin indifferent na siya Nail22: as in wala na siyang pakialam satin? David: malamang Nail22: may kinalaman kaya yun dun sa… David: possibly Nail22: but consider this, kung totoo ngang nahuhulog na ang feelings niya sa ibang guy, diba parang mas maganda na yung lumayo na siya? David: anong kinaganda nun? Nail22: kasi nga diba, alam niya na may weird kang feelings sa kanya David: oo nga Nail22: but we don’t have to feel so bad. We love her don’t we? Kaya fai

haay damn it! im sick of being broken... i hate it so much!

I let the blowing cold wind Take away what I feel Been trying to ignore my emotions I stare away from what’s real I can tell by the way I look My reflection’s getting blurred I don’t feel I still know myself Things have been a bit absurd I wanna be true to myself And find a way to love you But I can only wish like a child Cause you’re my fairy tale that won’t come true I can only wish to love you I can only dream about us being together Be mine and I’ll be yours Lock you in my arms forever And so I pray eyes closed For our roads to cross someday Be star-crossed lovers we never were Living our fruitful better days But now I can only wish to love you I can only dream of being with you Must I believe that someday, somehow These dreams will soon come true

dahil sobra akong natuwa noong binasa to on-air sa Breakfast last December 6 at dahil na rin may nagtanong kung nasaan na tong poem na to, ito ibinabalik ko as top article, hehe! Good gracious I love patty laurel How can I resist, she does her thing so well I love her smiles, laughs and giggles So cool I chill, so hot I sizzle Those dimples, they’re so lovely Which I can stare at for an hour or two maybe What abut her hair, man oh so fabulous Of course fitting to a lady who’s so gorgeous And wait till you hear her voice so alive and sweet You might see yourself knocked off your feet My mornings won’t be complete without Miss Patty She’s the warmth of morning beams that embrace me Thoughts of her along can sure make me smile Those thoughts stay with me a little while I was born long ago but really never felt so alive Not till I felt her moved me closer to joy deep inside She made my life more wonderful than before With that I can only ask for a little more And that is to move closer a

Where you at right now that, I don't know but I'm taking my time till I make you mine cause I'm yours all along Do dreams come true I'm not quite sure but I'll keep on praying and keep on hoping the road to you won't be obscure because there's a love deep inside me a feeling so real I wish you can feel what's reflected in my poety and even now that you're far too far to be held youn't be forgotten and my arms will be waitin' with love that won't end

grabe, binasa kanina sa breakfast show yung poem ko for miss patty laurel.. yipee, ang saya talaga nun... haay, salamat at medyo nakalimot din sa problema... ewan ko ba... pero totoo, masaya ako ngayon :D

There's been a Heaven of joy when I let the light of love shine in my herart and it flares only for you From its flame I feel the warmth The warmth to comforts me through the cold lonely night as my weary eyes slumber in seclusion slowly like a flickering candle light On to the Dreamland I go with much excitement and glee because I know I'll be seeing you smiling and looking back at me and though the dawn has broken I'm still here dreaming of you yearning like a flower to the sunbeams wanting these dreams to come true but when will our eyes meet is just but a mystery to me because you're someone my hands can't hold and my eyes can't see Will these fairy tale dream come true I can only hope that it will so till then I'll be longing for you In solitude loving you still

nail: hi ctc? david: ctc? sino ka? nail: si nail david: adik ka ba ako si nail eh! nail: oo nga, ako ay ikaw at ikaw ay ako david: ito siguro epekto ng di naglulunch nail: oo nga, bakit ba di ka kumakain these days? david: may iniisip lang nail: tulad ng? david: tulad ni *toot nail: ah.. ayaw ka pa rin kausapin? david: yah nail: ewan ko ba naman kasi sayo eh nail: sabi mo mahalaga siya sayo nail: sabi mo kaibigan mo siya nail: e bakit lagi mo siyang niloloko? david: di ko naman intensiyon na lokohin siya eh david: gusto ko lang iexpress yung feelings ko david: thru writings, thru my clones nail: pero mali pa rin david: i know david: ewan ko nga ba, parang mahirap na talaga na mapatawad pa niya ako nail: buti alam mo nail: pero malay mo diba, magpapasko naman, baka maawa din sayo david: maawa? sira ka talaga nail: same to you david: =)) nail: =)) nail: ok ka na? david: di pa nail: adik david: wag mo akong tawaging adik siya lang pwedeng tumawag sakin niyan nail: sabi mo eh nail: payo k

its so hard to be misunderstood, isnt it? darn my heart breaking at this very moment. haay, ang hirap ng ganun, yun bang alam mong wala kang ginagawang masama pero karamihan kung hindi man lahat, masama ang tingin sayo na para ka bang kriminal. tinatanong ko ang sarili ko, meron bang mali sakin? kung meron, ano? lahat? di ko alam. insensitive daw ako at narrow-minded. dapat daw matuto akong sumabay sa agos... that's it, sa tingin ko di nga talaga nila ako maiintindihan. nasasaktan ako, sobra. just when you thought na nakakita ka na ng community kung saan ka nabibilang, bigla mong malalaman na masama rin pala ang tingin ng mga tao dun sayo. ano bang mali sakin? napakatanga ko para di yun malaman, haay...

sobra na.. may mga taong ayaw ko talagang patulan pero minsan lumalagpas na sila sa linya nila, they're going overboard. nakakainis kasi in the first place, di naman sila involve sakin at i dont have any beef on them as in wala naman talaga kaming koneksiyon... nakakainis pero timpi lang... nagtitimpi lang talaga ako pero kung di ko na makaya, might as well patulan ko na, sana lang di na umabot sa ganun kasi i really feel it isnt worth it

haay, balot ako ng pagsisisi ngayon. alam mo yun, may isa kang bagay na gustung-gusto pero nung dumating yung araw na pwede na yung magkaroon ng katuparan, tulog ka sa pansitan. naiinis ako sa sarili ko, inis na inis na inis. bilang parusa, di ako manonood ng tv for one whole week!

Ang lahat ng bagay ay may simula at wakas. Ang mga bulaklak, gaano man kahalimuyak ay malalanta rin. Ang mga nagtatayugang puno, di maglalaon ay mabubuwal sabay sa panahon. Maging ang mga tala na nag-aalab sa kalawakan ay sasapit rin sa sarili nitong wakas at ito ay hatid ng hindi mapigil na takbo ng oras. Ang kasalukuyan ay ang kinabukasan ng nakaraan at nakaraan ng kinabukasan. Ang bawat bukas na ating inaabangan, sa isang kisap-mata ay mapapabilang na rin sa tinatawag nating mga araw na nakalipas. Ang bawat nagaganap sa ating buhay sa kasalukuyan, mabuti man o masama, malungkot man o masaya, ay magiging bahagi na lamang ng ating alaala sa oras na umusad ang panahon. Ang lahat ay magiging pawang alaala na lamang na marahil ay maaaring lingunin subalit kailanman ay din a maaaring balikan. Ang nakaraan ng isang tao ay may malaking papel na ginagampanan sa kanyang buhay subalit hindi tiyak. Maaari itong maging lakas na siyang tutulak sa kanya pasulong tungo sa kanyang mga pangarap at

oo rejection! na-reject na rin ako dati pero ito na yata yung pinaka-masakit. ito ang kwento: nasa isang delikadong sitwasyon kami ng pamilya ko ngayon, di naman sa exaggerated pero delikado talaga ang buhay namin. di ako sigurado pero malamang ako rin nangaganib na matigok anytime. i dont want to take chances, baka mahuli na ang lahat kaya naman naisip kong makipagkita sa isang special na tao pero siguro di pa ganun kalaki ang tiwala niya sakin-di siya pumayag. nasaktan ako pero naiintihan ko naman siya eh! nalulungkot lang ako at natatakot kasi baka di na ako magkaroon ng sunod na pagkakataon.

Pagtangi, pag-ibig nagliliyab na damdamin nakakadarang subalit nakakaakit para sa isang pusong ligaya ay di nasilayan pagsamo, panalangin daluyan ng pag-asa paglapit sa 'yo isang pangarap na nabubuhay bawat pintig ng puso hatid ay pag-asa sa katuparan ikaw ay iniibig nagsusumamong damdamin ako'y nadadarang isang pagsintang di na mapipigilan palalayain ang damdamin sa pag-asang ito ay diringgin teka, gets mo na ba gusto kong sabihin? dumudugo na kasi ilong ko ang hirap kaya maging poet, duh! kung di ka lang malakas sakin :D basta labs na labs kita peksman walang bola

hangguyo hangguyo! hangguyo mo David! Hanngang kelan ba ako maguguluhan ng dahil sa... lab na yan?! Hehehe! oo naguguluhan ako to the point na parang ayaw ko na lang isipin but i really feel the need to be next to her... haaay...

I resigned now to my fate Enough tensions in my head Don’t want to think about this anymore Too much has been done and said I submit to you with my soul Your will shall be my destiny But oh my merciful Lord I ask Please care enough to grace me Grace me with some calmness So nightmares won’t be usual Grace me with compassion So thoughts won’t be too cynical Grace me with good judgment So I won’t stumble with my faults Grace me love for my enemies So desires for revenge will halt Now all I ask Is all I’ll ever need To get through this daze That now I’m dealing with If it’s not too much, I lastly ask Lord grace me with someone to hold I know the roads ahead are rough And perhaps, nights will be so cold

sabado, 2 sana ang plano kong gawin, kumain ng popcorn habang nanonood ng sine o kaya naman manood ng sine habang kumakain ng popcorn. naisip kong isama yung kaibigan ko kaya naglogin ako sa YM para makausap siya pero sa intro pa lang sopla na kaagad. tinanong ko siya kung may lakad siya after work, wala daw pero matutulog siya ng maaga. makikipagkompetensiya ba ako sa comfort na ibibigay ng kama niya? naisip ko na wag na lang. isang sad face na emoticon lang ang naisagot ko. sabi ko never mind. ang nakakatawa, binantaan niya ako na lalabas daw yung kamay niya sa monitor at sasampalin ako kapag di ko sinabi. naalala ko tuloy si sadako. kahit tinakot niya ako, di ko pa rin sinabi ung plano ko... plano na nanantili na lang na plano.yun ang unang kamalasan, ito yung pangalawa: dahil wala na akong nagagamit na cel ngayon, naisip ko na baka pwede ko na lang siyang tawagan kahit paminsan-minsan lang sa landline. tinanong ko kung pwede pero di siya pumayag... indirect yung sagot niya pero yun

I never thought you'll be just another pain on the list when loving you all along is what I'm reluctant to resist. Some say this affection is quite dumb and insane but what the hell is the deal with these tears and pain? Now that you're with him, I can't seem to react. I can just stare away but you know I don't play that. Maybe I need to deal with this sadness right now. Try be numb or just get use to it somehow because it seems I really can never be with you, you're just like a fairy tale that won't come true. SO go on and sail by my friend, my love. Perhaps friendship is the only thing we can ever have. wala lang to, di based sa tunay na emosyon... hehehe!

nakakatawa... oo, natatawa ako sa sarili ko.. mukha akong engot.. natatakot ako sa wala... hehehe! communication... kelangan talaga ng communication! wahahaha! sorry kung di mo naintindihan, hehehe!

Can I wonder where could you be right now when it seems i can't be with you anyhow? Can I dream to be lying next to you when reality barred it from being true? Can I hope that one day you'll be here with me if time will just wither it eventually? Can I believe that happy endings will soon come if it is fate that which I can't understand I can because now I'm doing so. If it's crazy then it's the last insanity I'll know. I know one day I'll stare straight in your brown eyes then I'll have these dreams finally realized

bakit kaya ganun pero siguro ganun talaga. pag-ibig.. magulo pero di naman talaga magulo, nakaklito pero di naman nakakalito. baliw na yata... hehehe! natatakot ako... wala lang... takot lang... adik ka talaga!

bumangon ka na juan hahayaan mo bang amagin na lang ang buko pie patuloy sa pagtakbo ang oras di ito hihinto at maghihintay isa pa, tumatangis na ang iyong bayan dinggin mo ang kaynyang pagususumamo humihingi ng pagmamalasaki tumaasa sa kahit kaunting pagbabago mga ginintuang aral at kultura tila naipit na lang sa pahina ng mga aklat mga tinatayang pag-asa ng bayan masdam mo kung saan sila iminumulat mga baluktot na katwiran at paniniwala sa lipunan na tila isang masukal na gubat naghahari ang siyang malalakas sinasamantala ang mga salat masdam mo ang iyong mga kababayan habang itinatapon ang kaayusan at disiplina maging hiya sa kanilang mga sarili tuluyan nang ipinag-walang bahala isang masama at nakahihilakbot na kultura nagbabadyang lumamon sa iyong bayan kultura ng karahasan at pagkagahaman kumilos ka at huwag itong hayaan bumangon ka na juan magsilbi kang tanglaw sa kadiliman tulad nina red one, green two, blue three, yellow four at pink five ipaglaban mo ang katiwasayan at

Washed by pain memories of past lying beside oblivion Unremembered Got numb by bleeding in gravest sorrow happy thoughts Forgotten Mournful whistle embraced the asleep cradled by tears Forsaken City of melancholy hurt dwellers living with paranoia Haunted Sanity is but a nightmare spawning misery died at will Stolen

tawag daw dito ay pagsintang pururot wag ka nang kiligin, alam ko namang tunog mabantot ewan ko nga kung bakit ganun ang tawag dito siguro wala nang maisip yung nakaimbento ano kaya kung parang paputok, pagsintang supot eeew, para yatang mas mabantot hehehe! siguro ganito talaga may mga bagay na dapat idaan na lang sa tawa tulad nitong mga sinasabi ko nakakatakot kasi kapag sineryoso alam mo na, baka sa ICU ang maging bagsak nakakangarag at nakakalabnaw ng utak di ko nga alam kung bakit naisulat pa tong tula e para din namang mauuwi sa wala haay, pagsintang pururot nga naman hahamakin ang lahat, mailabas ka lamang eeew!

she can keep me sane whenever i go crazy she helps me stay still when i can't stand steady she's my brown-eyed homie i feel like calling her G she's my brown-eyed homie who's so special to me she can cheer me up whenever i feel sad she can tone me down each time i'm badly mad she's my brown-eyed homie who makes me feel i'm lucky she's my brown-eyed homie who's been so dear to me she's my brown-eyed homie my only brown-eyed homie she's my brown-eyed homie my lovely brown-eyed homie

Lately I’ve been dealing with this morning sickness that really breaks the hell out of me. If you are wondering what the crap I’m talking about, well wonder no more. Every morning when I wake up, to think that I still woke up, I feel sick. Yes I’m sick of waking up every morning knowing that I’m about to break further. The scums, the crap, the lies and almost hell everyone bring me down. Each night before I go to sleep I say die David die, so it makes me sick to wake up the following day just like what I did earlier. This life isn’t working out for me. If only I can hire a person to kill me right now I will. Why not just murder myself, you may ask. Shit! I’ve don that almost 4 years ago when I had a gulp of that stupid insect killer but I’m so dumb I can’t even commit suicide the right way. I’m scared because I’m no longer afraid to die. I’m sick, so sick, dead sick of it! When will this bullshit end? I’m broken. I’ve been saying I’m fine but I’m broken. If only she didn’t leave me her

Broken down into pieces Sorrow spawns sorrow One misery after another Messing like a psycho Trying to escape fate But just ran in circles Fire still burns Hopes die a little Had succumb to darkness Forsaken by light Bones are chilling Not with fever but with fright Wondering what went wrong But answers are unfound Sanity drifted away Leaving a mournful sound Voices from the unknown Whispered evil intentions Feasting on fear Feeding on emotions Somewhat devilish grin Pictured behind the mind Once was just staring away But now has hone blind Gasping for breath But yearning to die Wanting to feel safe From all the wasting inside Time to lie in this coffin Be sheltered from pain It won’t take long To cast sorrows in vain It’ll be safe here Lying so emotionless All hurtings will end And so do loneliness I’m lying alone now Gone are the days of wasting I’m down with this It’s safe here in his coffin

I can watch you walk away I can stare at you as you leave But please don’t turn about I don’t want you to see me as I bleed When you go I’ll die a little And somehow try to live again I’ll die over and over Till I find a way to mend But please don’t come back To only ask if I’m OK If you’ll be here once more Please be sure that you’ll stay Because it’ll only hurt me more To see guilt in your eyes We didn’t want this to end this way But we both have to pay the price Go now my love Leave me here alone But if you feel that’s a wrong decision Don’t hesitate to come back home

There were thousand tears I cried With so much pain I bear inside So much wasting in my life I almost slit my throat with a knife But those useless tears have dried All stupid thoughts have died Childish emotions I’ve set aside No more fears I’m forced to hide I got no more tears for you darling They’ve gone sick of falling I got no more tears for you darling But it didn’t change the fact that it’s you I’m missing I may have no more tears for you But I don’t mean that I stopped loving you I just realized this is the fall Because you said you didn’t love me at all

I just woke up from a nightmare. it was the same nightmare that's been haunting me for quite a while now. there was me catching my breath as i try to catch up with her. she was running so fast and the road where we were seems endless. i smothered when i woke up. i guess i really miss her.it's been a month when we last saw each othere. i thought i'll get used to the fact that she's not here with me but i just can't. i keep on longing and wishing for her. i can clearly recall those days when she was here with me listening to my stories and laughing at my jokes. i miss hte comfort, completeness, joy, security and that undefinable feeling i felt when i was with her i miss her so bad i often soothe myself with those memories she left. my heart wants to believe that those are worth remembering and for real but my mind refuses to do the same. i know ;that all we had wre just stray illusions that broke-in to the real world, and now, those illusions are back where they'r

tulad ng iba naniniwala rin ako na di nakakamatay ang pagiging heartbroken pero gaano nga ba kalaki ang pwedeng maging damage nun? depende siguro sa sitwasyon. parang ganito, 10-20 pesos lang ang halaga ng mineral water sa city pero sa disyerto, halos buhay na ang katumbas nun.paano kung nasa sitwasyon ka na wala nang natitira sayo? yung wala ka nang matakbuhang kaibigan at pamilyang masandalan... yung lahat ng pangarap mo naisuko mo na at nawalan ka na ng pag-asa. paano kung sa ganung panahon dumating ang... ehem.. pag-ibig? nagmahal ka at naramdaman mo na minahal ka rin.ang saya nun. mabubuhatyan ka ulit. mararamdaman mo na hindi ka nag-iisa. maiisip mo na may halaga ka pa pala. babalik ulit yung tiwala mo sa sarili. matuto ka ulit mangarap. pero paano kung di pala totoo ang lahat? paano kung di pala pagmamahal ang nararamdaman niya sayo? masakit tama? mawawala ulit yung tiwala mo sa sarili mo. babagsak ulit ang mga pangarap. alam ko, nangyari sakin yun.dumating siya sa punto ng buha

“Nye nye nye nye nyeee,di naman masakeeet!”Malamang narining mo nay yang dialougue na yan dati, yun e kung isa ka sa mga bata na nakinabang sa Vitamin D na hatid ng sikat ng araw at nagsunog ng libu-libong calories sa pakikipaglaro ng ma-touch taya, tumbang preso, block 123, luksong tinik, langit-lupa, etc.Naalala ko, dati naglalabang kami ng teks, may isang bata na umapak sa pamato ko. sa pag-iisip kong malas sa laban yun, sinigawan ko yung batang yun pero sa halip na mag-sorry siya, inapakan pa niya ulit. naasar ako kaya binangasan ko siya. umatras yung bata at biglang nagsabi, “nye nye nye nye nyeee, di naman masakeet!” pagkasabi niya nun, bigla na siyang tumakbo palayo. kinatiyawan ako ng mga kaibigan ko, an ghina ko daw sumapak. ang totoo, bumilib ako dun sa batang yun kasi di siya umiyak nung sinapak ko siya at di man lang nasaktan pero nawala agad yung pagka-elibs ko nung nakuwi na ako. Pag-uwi ko kasi ginulpi ako ng nanay ko. Ang sabi niya(pasigaw), pumunta daw yung kumara niya

Sa tuwing titingnan ko ang sarili ko, napupuno ako ng nakaraming kung. Para akong puno ako ng panghihinayang, poot, pagsisi, pagka-bahala, takot at higit sa lahat, kalungkutan. Para akong nagniningas na baga na unti-unting naabo. Kahit sa guni-guni di ko naisip na sa ganito mauuwi ang lahat. Punung-puno ako ng sigla noon at napakarami kong pangarap subalit isa-isa yung naglaho kasabay ng pakaupos ng paniniwala ko sa halaga ng buhay. Kung hindi lang sana ako maagang naulila sa ama, hindi ako mawawalan ng gabay, kaibigan, kakwentuhan, kakampi at tagapagtanggol. Kung pinahalagahan lang sana ng ina at mga kapatid ko ang mga pangarap ko, hindi sana nila ako inabandona. Marahil hindi nila ipinagkait sa akin ang material at emosyonal na suporta. Marahil din nakapagtapos ako ng pag-aaral at mayroon nang disenteng hanapbuhay sa ngayon. Kung hindi lang sana ako iniwan ng mga kaibigan ko sa ere meron sanang gagabay at susuporta sakin kahit papaano. Mayroon sana akong makakaramay bukod sa lapis, p

The light succumbs to darkness As the wind makes a mournful whistle Silence met solitude Hopes and dreams die a little Pain heightened up Childish smiles go pale Suddenly trapped in anxiety Left without a trail Lost in ownself Running in circles again Wanting to be fixed But no way out of being broken Running over and over But always end up at square one Trying to stay composed Though sanity’s almost gone Started hearing requiem Mind perceived sweet death Pulse began to drop Slowly losing breath Memories flash back Like moving pictures they play Reminiscence of yesteryears With so rare beautiful days Body grew tired Sols has gone to oblivion Eyes closed for good Tears fell for salvation

Hindi kita makasama Di man lang nga kita Makita Kaya dito ka na lang muna sa isip ko Wala naman sigurong masama Kapag kasi nasa isip kita Para na rin kitang kasama Siguro nga mukha na akong engot Pero di na yun mahalaga Dito ka na lang sa isip ko Hindi naman malalaman ng iba Kung ano man ang nararamdaman ko Sa sarili ko na lang muna Natatakot na kasi ako Ayaw ko na muna maging komplikado Baka kasi kapag pinag-usapan pa ulit nating Tuluyan ka nang lumayo at magbago Ayaw ko kasing magkagano’n Ayaw kong iwasan mo ako Kaya mabuti na yung ganito Dito ka na lang muna sa isip ko

Sleepless Constantly remain Broken Solely by pain Smothering By stupid lies Reluctant But paid the price Oblivious Of the days coming Unaware Of all the wasting Hopeless Conceded cowardly Surrendering All that’s left to see Dying With all the sorrow Closing The curtain of the show Epilogue Has finally come Death Got miseries gone

I’ve been so sad lately I’ve been missing you and me I miss the way I’ve been to you I miss the way you’ve been to me I guess I’ll forever miss you and me There were us so young and happy You know it amounts so much to me You’re the one I love most true You’re the only one my heart can see I believe I’ll miss you and me I’ll hold you once more if fate would let me I hope we can be who we used to be I always long for you You’ll always be dear to me I know I’ll forever miss you and me

More than friends? I used to think so But it has come to end Maybe I should let go It’s been too close But not quite Now I’m stuck with broken nose Sleepless every night Sweet lovers? In my dreams I guess I used to be a believer That love isn’t always a mess But she turned her back Slowly walk away I can’t seem to react In such a sane way It’s been too close But certainly not quite Darn! It’s she I miss the most But I guess it’s not right

Past. Past. Past There were pasts I already turned my back on Then you came. I held your hand I thought we can move on But now I feel your hand slipping You kiss me as if it’s already goodbye I know something’s wrong It’s seen in your eyes You’re taking away the warmth of your embrace Along with the sweetness of your touch Can I be hurt more than this Knowing I endear you so much Don’t push me to let you go Don’t be just another past Because you may not be the first I want to have this love as my last

Ang puso Tumitibok Minsan nag-iisip Minsan parang ugok Humahanga Nagmamahal May oras na kinikilig May oras na parang sinasakal Ang puso Nakakaramdam Sumasaya Nasasaktan Kapag nasaktan Ibig sabihin nasugatan Internal bleeding Patay tayo diyan Ang puso Kapag may hemorrhage Nanlalamig Parang nasa Ice Age KEEP FROZEN Baka mabulok Kapag wala nang hemorrhage Muling titibok

Takot ako sa daga pero higit diyan meron pa akong ibang kinatatakutan. Hindi; hindi yung halimaw kong prof sa Accounting, hindi rin yung babaeng nagpaiyak sakin (iyakan daw ba yung babae, siyempre nanay ko yun), takot ako sa kinabukasan. Takot akong makita ang hinaharap natin, tayo bilang mga Pilipino (naks makabayan). Napakagulo ng lipunan natin; pulitika, seguridad, pananalapi at halos lahat ng aspeto ng lipunan. Takot akong tumada at magkapamilya nang hindi si...ang asawa ko, oops mali! Ibig kong sabihin, takot akong tumada at magkapamilya sa napakagulo at walang kasiguraduhanng lugar na to na kung tawagin ay Pilipinas.Sayang, kung isasabuhay lang sana ng mga pulitiko yung sinumpaan nilang tungkuling bilang tagapaglingkod ng bayan, wala sanang mga bangayan na nangyayari, wala sanang mga raliyista na sumisigaw sa kalye, wala sanang mga black propaganda na lumalabas,wala sanang katiwalian, tahimik, payapa, maunlad at masaya sana ang lahat.Sayang, kung gagampanan lang sana ng lahat ng

Paano kapag nakita mo na yung Annie ng Shaider mo, ang Rio ng iyong Michael Joe, ang Chi chi ng iyong Son Gokou, ang Jenny ng iyong Eugene, ang Hinata ng iyong Naruto, ang Bonnie ng iyong Clyde, ang Kim ng iyong Eminem, ang Juliet ng iyong Romeo, ang Salome ng iyong Elias at loveteam ng iyong Bob Ong; kapag nakita mo na yung bubuo sa pagkatao mo na parang Jigsaw puzzle, yung taong magtutuwid sa baluktot at mala-pretzel mong pananaw sa buhay, yung taong magiging gabay mo na parang reflectors ng MMDA sa EDSA; kapag nakita mo na yung taong gusto mong makasama, yung taong ikalulugod mong pagsilbihan, yung taong handa mong ipaglaban kahit kanino, kahit saan at kahit kailan; kapag nakita mo na yung taong mamahalin mo ng walang pagdududa, magiging gaano kasakit na hindi mo makasama yung taong yun? Paano kung sarili mo lang kahinaan at kakulangan ang pumipigil sayo?Siguro maramdaman mo na para kang isan poet na hindi makasulat ng tula, parang isang movie director na hindi makagawa ng pelikula,

Stranger in my eyes I miss you I miss you, I really, really do Stranger in my eyes I miss you I just hope words can show it’s true I miss you and I really do Stranger in my eyes hold me now Hold me now, ease my longings somehow Stranger in my eyes hold me now Caress me with your touch anyhow Show me how it feels ;loved somehow May I ask stranger in my eyes Till when you’ll be a stranger in my eyes If you’re a dream I want you realized That would be a moment of no price I’ll buy you ice, stranger in my eyes I guess I really miss you So in this closing statement let me say I love you And that makes me miss you stranger Lovely stranger in my eyes

Lay me close to you Close, so close To hear you breathe To see you smile while you dream So close to feel that you’re near Lay me close to you Night after night When I feel insecure When I’m afraid to be alone Nights when I long for you Lay me close to the love I know To the only love I know Lay me close to the love I know Lay me close to the love I know I know you’re afraid Afraid to be hurt Like the ones who’ve gone astray Like the ones who broke their hearts Be hurt like you’ve been before But lay me close to you Close, so close For me to ease your mind For me to chase your fears Close for me to show I’m here Lay me close to the love I know To the only love I know Lay me close to the love I know Lay me close to the love I know Lay me close to you Close, so close to you

Everytime I see that Ameurfina smile I smile back for a while I dream awake with it’s lullaby To sadness I say goodbye That Ameurfina smile That kind, so kind Ameurfina smile Everytime I see that Ameurfina smile I smile back for a while There is love I come to know Something I won’t let go For Ameurfina smile That sweet, so sweet Ameurfina smile But where do I go from here Ameurfina smile will you still be near If you won’t stay and be gone far away Go on, I’ll just find another way To once more see that smile My beloved, most beloved Ameurfina smile

I sit by the window pane, showered by the moonlight leaking in. I think of you. I think of nobody but you, Hoping your thoughts could fill the vast empty space your absence left me. Emptiness I cloaked with laughter so no one would see I’m wondering where are you now this moment I’m alone with sad eyes. I dream of you. I dream of nobody but you, Wanting this dreams be re’lized like happy endings told by Dad’s tales Happy ending I pray to come And constantly hail I sit by the window pane And though the clouds stole the moonlight leaking in I still think of you, still nobody but you.

Sinamahan ko yung pamangkin ko sa Barber Shop noong Linggo. May TV sila, At Home Ka Dito ang palabas. Si Jamilla ng PBB Teen Edition ang featured celebrity; yung single mom.Sa kalagitnaan ng palabas narinig ko yung comment ng isang lalake na tawagin na lang nating si Boy Bawang. Sabi niya, “Ok sana yan si Jamilla kaya lang nagpabuntis agad, malandi.” Gusto kong agawin yung gunting nung barbero para gupitin yung dila niya pero di ko naman kaya eh!Siguro nga ang pagiging single mom ay hindi naaayon sa prinsipyo ng moralidad na meron tayo dito sa Pilipinas. Alam nating mariing tinututulan ng Simbahan ang pre-marital sex. Bilang isang Katolikong bansa, malaki ang impluwensiya ng simbahan sa kung anong konsepto ng moralidad meron tayo bilang isang lipunan. Sa kabila nun, hindi sapat na gawing basehan ang pagiging single mom para husgahan ang pagkatao ng isang babae. Nakakalungkot dahil kadalasan, sa kanila nababaling lahat ng mapanghusgang tingin ng mga taong kung tawagin ay mga ipokritong