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Staring at the clock Wondering when will this end Lost in this silence Remembering the words you said You said we can't be together You told me this has to stop My heart begins to break My brain starts to pop Why am I still loving you When I know this won't go anywhere Why am I still longing for you When it's taking any smile I can wear And I stare at the clock Time waits for no one Yet my world got stuck Since the day you've gone Fri 31 Aug 2012 9:46:22 AM Sent from my BlackBerry� wireless handheld

Emotions come from knowledge. You won't feel anything that you don't have any awareness of. As the old saying goes, what you don't know won't hurt you. Sometimes, it will all boil down to the point when you'll choose indifference as the quickest fix and ignorance as a sturdy wall. It's crazy borderline to being pathetic but that would be the lesser evil. I decided not to read Facebook feeds at all, but it seems that the unwanted posts are still able to find its way to my awareness. I've read another post just couple of minutes ago that made so envious, one of the most unhealthy feeling a man can feel. It somehow found it's way through cross-posting feature of Facebook, so I'm also moving my BBM out from my homescreen. A quick fix because it's been a proven principle. What you don't know won't hurt you. Tue 28 Aug 2012 8:36:47 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

Going through my file case, I saw this note she wrote for me simply saying "yes". I remember the good auld days. Good stuff. This was her response to one of the invitation I sent her. I can recall the smile on her face when as she read the invitation I wrote in poetry, I made it appear like scroll laced with a golden metallic string written using a calligrapher's pen. Oh sweet memory. Sun 26 Aug 2012 16:48:06 Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

When things aren't really going your way, when situations become really tough for you to go through, when pain seems to be too much bear, when being well isn't on the plate, then the next best thing to do is to sleep. Sleeping is awesome, you forget everything for a little while; no longing for someone, no feeling alone, no pain, no worries, just a sweet escape from the world. Sat, Aug 25, 2012 10:25:59 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

The road to you remained untravelled It's just far from my reach Between fantasy and reality Can't tell which is which Like an open wound Skin can't be stitched Life being sucked away Like blood to a leech Follow the natural order Go and hike a hitch This is gonna be a bumpy ride Life is a bitch Fri, Aug 24, 2012 8:43:32 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

Missing you is my new habit One I can't seem to break Attached with unexplained sadness Which is too much to take Missing you is my new habit Just too unfortunate Stuck in your memories I can't wipe this slate It's just too bad It's just so wrong What the hell now I'm not that strong Thu, Aug 23, 2012 6:46:15 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

If I cry a river Will it take me to your shore For I can't stand to be away Each day I've been wanting you more This is a place of melancholy I want to be by your side But I can't take the wheels I know this has been a crazy ride What would it take me sweetie To be right there beside you Will the tables ever turn And hear you say you want this too Do I need to cry a river To get to your shore I can start weeping now I can't stand to be away anymore Mon, Aug 20, 2012 4:52:35 PM _______ Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

The days are too long It never seem to end Feels like being stuck in a cycle Broken and won't mend Where are you now How have you been I wanted to be near you If you know what I mean I want to see you smile once more And make my heart jump again I want to feel the warmth of your touch and put this longing to an end All I want is to be near you But maybe that's too much to ask Because all of these things Have now been called as past Sun, Aug 19, 2012 6:09:28 PM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

I remember the scent of your hair The warmth of your touch The weight of your head on my shoulder Oh I'm missing it so much I remember the sound of your voice The kindness in your smile I take my mind back in time And stay there for a little while Because I can only miss you now There's nothing more I can do You've gone somewhere far And I guess everything's through I remember the love I know How can this be so wrong I can only miss you now I'm just not that strong Sat, Aug 18, 2012 8:43:53 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

It's very rare to find someone who will be there for you through your lowest of days. People, no matter how caring they seem to be, always have the tendency to look after themselves only. Maybe that's not true, maybe it's just my disbelief in the goodness of humanity that made me think that way. Yesterday, I received very kind words from my good friend. She said, "Go get some sleep, when you wake up tomorrow, I will still be here for you." Faith in humanity has been restored. Thu, Aug 16, 2012 7:03:58 PM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

Most of the time, good intentions aren't really enough. In this life that's full of confusion, many minds have been mislead, misguided and got lost in twisted road of vagueness. One's level of idealism is critical on how that certain person affects other people. Most individual do things with good intentions but tend to get opposite results. The more they attempt to fix things, the more broken it becomes. Nobody can play god in people's misery. Nobody can play hero in a world full of pain. Nobody. Wed, Aug 15, 2012 10:13:42 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

Deafened by silence Gone numb of the pain Drowning in longing Crying out a single name Absence of sanity Indeed a crazy world Got a lot to say But can't find the right words Want to say, "I miss you" Oh what right do you have now None my poor lad Just get by somehow Get used to melancholy In indifference there is bliss Thoughts may wonder most times Unreal but comforting at least Tue, Aug 14, 2012 5:40:51 PM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

It was another gloomy afternoon and the dark clouds and heavy rain add up to the melancholy. He sat down thinking about the days when they chose to forget everyone around and just be happy being together. "The good auld days," he sighed. The rain began to flood the roads the same way his mind is being flooded by the thoughts of the woman he adores the most - a dangerous sight. He retreated to his memories for the present days aren't giving him any comfort that he need, but reality always follow him wherever he go. There's no running away from the truth. There's no walking away from reality. She was never his girl. He cannot lose what he never had. As her absence wash away all the remaining strand of joy he has, he then again retreated to his own little world where indifference is the only means of survival. The rain began to flood the roads, the same way him mind is being flooded by the woman he loves the most. Mon, Aug 13, 2012 4:17:23 PM Sent from my B

Sadness enveloped the night This has been a city of melancholy Curled in bed, fist clenched tight Gone sceptic of what's holy Trapped in these four walls Not knowing which is the way out Trembling in terror as the night falls Composure is what's totally without In this prison of loneliness Time must be served For all the wrong judgment You'll get what you deserve Sun, Aug 5, 2012 10:33:39 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

I hate being idle My thoughts should always be occupied Because if not I'll think of you again And there will be longing deep inside I must chase your thoughts away Or at least try to block it out Because I know I can't be with you I can say it without a doubt I ran away from your memories I hide from my dreams of you That's the lesser of all the evils That's the most I can do But when emptiness strikes me I'm back sitting on square one Trying to put things back together Going back to where I started from And so I hate being idle Evil is in idle mind I must stare away from your thoughts If I can completely leave it behind Mon, Aug 6, 2012 3:42:01 PM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

I saw a random teenage kid who walked towards a man begging for some change. Instead of giving some money that he might not have, he guided the old guy towards the waiting shed and said, "It's raining, you might get sick if you stay there." Faith in humanity has been restored. Mon, Aug 6, 2012 8:52:34 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

I find myself staring blankly at the ceiling Here I am thinking of you again Wondering about this love that I'm feeling And when will the longing end Juggling one thought after another Evil is an idle mind For it can only think of us being together And it's a bliss I can never find If I can shut down my brain for a moment That's something I'll certainly do Because sometimes I can no longer stand the torment Of being too far away from you But here I am now Thinking of you again Here I am now Wishing for this longing to end Mon, Aug 6, 2012 6:28:03 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

Counting down the hours Not knowing when will this end This moment could've been ours But you only see me as your friend There will be nothing more There will be nothing less And though you're the one I most adore This love will just end up as a mess I'll never see bliss There will always be pain You're the one I'll always miss As I cry out your name So I count down the hours Hoping this will soon end This moment could've been ours We could've been more than friends Sun, Aug 5, 2012 4:24:09 PM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

Sadness enveloped the night This has been a city of melancholy Curled in bed, fist clenched tight Gone sceptic of what's holy Trapped in these four walls Not knowing which is the way out Trembling in terror as the night falls Composure is what's totally without In this prison of loneliness Time must be served For all the wrong judgment You'll get what you deserve Sun, Aug 5, 2012 10:33:39 AM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld