BLOTS

There’s an emptiness in me That which I have to live with Knowing I’ll be apart From what I’ll ever need You’re the love that I know The love I’ll always keep But now you’ve become a dream That I’ll only see when I’m asleep Your absence left a void One thing that can’t be filled If it’s something I can’t control Then it’s fate that got me killed A dead man walking Perhaps my soul is gone Your love could’ve saved me But what’s done is done And so I lay lifeless as dead Though there’s still air to breathe But what’s the point on holding on After losing the sole thing you ever need?

I'll be a hypocrite if I'll say that I don't want to hear her say that she loves me, but now, there's just one thing that I would want i.e. to be able to say that I love her. Sometimes even the simplest words can be so hard to say, knowing that she already knows it, still, there's like a thick wall dividing us...maybe it's called fate, and I'm hating it to be honest.

I will love her with all the love a man can give to a woman, as if there's no tomorrow and although this ain't the first, it's perfectly fine if it'll be the last. I love Muffin.

something taken from my archives... Let me write something for you Just in case you don't think I can do it However, it may not be as good as others' Since I'm not a full-blooded poet But let these words flow freely Like an emotion being let gone As free as boundless thoughts From a mind that fears no one Words at their rawest and purest Ain't down to hit around the bush But hopeful it'll leave a mark Like what maple did or the swoosh For I want you to remember this I fear I might not be able to say it again So give me just one moment Hope you will care to listen I'll give up being in Utopia For a chance to lie beside you That's just a fair trade I won't regret for a lifetime or two I guess what I want say Is that I love you so I hope these simple words Are enough to let you know 2:10 AM 10/24/2009  

I feel so sh*tty right now. It feels like everything has gone out of line. Wherever I turn my sight in to, I seem to see a crappy view. Wtf is happening? It's a little too cynical to see the world in its twisted phase but I can't seem to help it, life sucks. It ain't a joke and I'm not laughing.

How can put in to words the love that makes me lose control when I'm seemingly bewitched, my dear by the charm of your body and soul How would I know what to say when your thoughts alone make my heart skip moving restless like a jumping bean lost in dreams though not asleep How can I tell you what I feel if distance has silenced my heart like a thick cold wall between us reminding me we're two worlds apart So I'm stuck in a hallow zone mumbling inaudible childish sounds while I let this love and yearning shake me creating cracks in this unfelt ground And silent I remain might eat my words and choke to death Poor thing, what a waste this love that was kept on stealth

Dreams are shattered Memories are fogotten. Mind won't comprehend for heart is broken. Singing a lullaby in a sleepless night but the monsters underneath are putting up a good fight. Drowning in nostalgia wanting to feel at home. In a place surrounded by demons it's suicidal to be alone. I need to be back to you. Having your love's my exorcism. When loathing breathes in my neck salvage me with your romanticism

Taken from my favourite animé, neon genesis could just be the right words to say. Troubles rise like hell these days, so I guess each and everyone can use a new beginning. I myself must abandon some paths I chose to follow to allow myself to venture in new ones, though it might lead me to part with a feeling I tried to hold on to. Well, I think that's really how life goes. One must really know when to stop.