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In this hell hole I lie In this hell hole, I stare at The Devil in the eye Don't struggle Don't even try You sealed your fate, motherfucker Now do yourself a favour and die In this hell hole there's no escape You can run But you will never be safe despair now It's all too late Your insignificant existence is nothing You got yourself an ill fate Tue, Jul 31, 2012 4:34:38 PM Sent from my BlackBerry wireless handheld

Her body's too weak But too afraid to slumber Have been restless for long Time is but a number Haunted by her own thoughts Screaming out too loud But nobody's listening Sanity's what she'll be without And when the night falls Nightmares will come to play Can never tell what real or not A struggle day after day She can't be saved There won't be any shelter Hope has gone long ago Nothing but terror to haunt her Mon, Jul 30, 2012 1:47:39 PM Sent from my BlackBerry� wireless handheld

I woke from a dream Another dream about you Where I'm holding you close Oh it felt so true I guess you're all I can think of Each and every single day You're the one I long to be with Although there seemed to be no way For you're out of my league and I can't be good enough Dreams are the sweetest But reality is just as tough And so I wonder If I'll ever hold you close And finally live these dreams Of being with the one I love most Sun, Jul 29, 2012 4:15:05 AM #poetry #love #romance #wishfulthinking #sadness #longing Sent from my BlackBerry� wireless handheld

I woke from a dream Another dream about you Where I'm holding you close Oh it felt so true I guess you're all I can think of Each and every single day You're the one I long to be with Although there seemed to be no way For you're out of my league and I can't be good enough Dreams are the sweetest But reality is just as tough And so I wonder If I'll ever hold you close And finally live these dreams Of being with the one I love most Sun, Jul 29, 2012 4:15:05 AM #poetry #love #romance #wishfulthinking #sadness #longing Sent from my BlackBerry� wireless handheld

I don't have to write it down. The memories of this day will stay in my mind forever. #life #birthday #memories #simplepleasures Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Every single time, there you are. You don't seem to have any intention to part from me. You're becoming unbearable now. I hate you, why can't you go away? Sun, Jul 22, 2012 6:48:13 PM #life #pain #longing Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Hello sadness It seems we meet again I tried to brush you off But I'm now at my wit's end Hello sadness it seems you're here to stay We'll play the game of tag Maybe every other day But what are you really You're still a puzzle to me I can't fathom your essence And the reason you came to be Perhaps you're just a nuisance Just another random evil in life But you sure cut into most sanity Better than the sharpest knife Sun, Jul 22, 2012 4:33:25 PM #literature #poetry #life #sadness Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

After great pain a formal feeling comes--The nerves sit ceremonious like tombs; The stiff Heart questions--was it He that bore? And yesterday--or centuries before? The feet, mechanical, go round A wooden way Of ground, or air, or ought, Regardless grown, A quartz contentment, like a stone. This is the hour of lead Remembered if outlived, As freezing persons recollect the snow--First chill, then stupor, then the letting go. #poetry #love #romance Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I feel like holding you I just want to feel your embrace I want to feel your breathing Maybe notice its fast pace I want to hold you close Maybe for a moment or two Feel your body next to mine And hear you say you want it too I guess it would be nice To have you here with me Lie down right next to you Filled with joy and security But this wishful thinking Is nothing but a fantasy Along with this love that I know That'll never make it to reality Fri, Jul 20, 2012 5:49:24 PM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

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There will be a point in your life that you'll realize to wake up from a dream - a dream where you've been hiding for a long time. You'll feel that it's just the right thing to do for it's foolishness to stay hopeful. You decide to snap out it, then it hits you - REALITY ISN'T ANY BETTER. Tue, Jul 17, 2012 8:08:31 AM #life #dreams #reality #pain #sadness Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

When there's nothing more to hang on to and when everything is really messed up, one may tell himself, "someday the hurting will stop" Too much optimism is dangerous for it blinds you from reality. Yes, maybe someday the pain will vanish just like that, but I feel that the much awaited "someday" may be a little too late. Thu, Jul 12, 2012 1:01:57 PM #life #pain #reality Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Dear Heart, Please stick to your job description i.e. pumping blood. Thanks, Hypothalamus #humor #emotions #logic Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I was checking my Facebook news feed (on my phone, yeah I know I should've just slept) when I saw her new profile picture. It looks nice objectively speaking. I don't know what has come to me but I decided to see the whole image and coming across the other pictures in the folder, I can simply say that they look so happy together. I then told myself, this is one lucky guy. I felt jealousy. I'm envious. All I wanted is to be with her but then again that won't be possible. For almost half of her life, she has been with that man and that should count for something. I don't know what am I thinking back then when I let my self fall in-love with someone like her. I guess that's what happens when emotions overrule logical thoughts. I made a mistake of entertaining my feelings for her but it's too late now. Pain and sadness has become inevitable. I guess the only consolation I have now is they look happy together. Mon, Jul 9, 2012 4:33:52 PM #Love #Romance

I find it funny when people say that happiness is a choice. Sure we can all be stupid...sorry, I mean optimistic like that at all times. We can all believe in the goodness of life and all the people around it. We can choose to believe that whatever it is that we're going through, in the end of the day, there's still a happy ending waiting for all of us. Sure, we can all do that, but don't tell that to those who are suffering beyond their threshold. Don't tell those who gets lulled to sleep by the sound of their hearts as it break into pieces. Don't tell that to those people whose suffering and sadness is beyond what we can fathom for one's suffering will always be far from others comprehension. Sometimes, for some people, happiness is never a choice. They can't just choose to be happy for their miseries are way too deep. They can't just choose to change things because their own hell hole is far deeper than what we can imagine. Sometimes, it just can'

Well the days will pass The tables will all turn Memories will all fade Bridges will be burned Feelings may all die We may even stop to care About the things around us And some of the burdens we bear Things will all change Maybe for the better or for worse But some things have an exemption Those things close to a curse Like this love that I feel I guess I'm still not over you I look like biggest fool For you'll never say you love me too I guess I'm still not over you I guess this is something bad For I can't say I miss you Because your someone I never had #love #romance #loss #sadness #poetry Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

There will be a point wherein sadness will really be inevitable and pain will be a feeling you have to get used to. Times like this call for extra measure of composure. Wear your game face every freaking. Laugh as if your heart is still intact when it's really broken into pieces. Do your job right even if you already lost interest in money and life in general. Live and get by each day even if kicking the bucket is the only sweetest thing that can happen to you. Deal with your sadness like a boss. Thu, Jul 5, 2012 2:27:10 PM #Life, #Sadness Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

There are things in life that we really get used to. Regardless if it's something too good that we already take for granted or something that's too bad that we just managed to live with, there will really be that something that will just be part of your daily existence. I'm not sure if the word routine will be the best word to describe it because I'm really not good in labeling or defining stuff like this. However, for the sake of discussion, let's just agree to call it as such. These said routines will just be a part of us. It's just sad to know that mine is the routine of feeling the pain. I find it odd that this feeling of pain just really won't part from me. If has grown to the point that I've gone used to it, as a matter of fact, it has always been in here I sometimes neglect to notice that I'm hurting, but there will always be pain. When I fell in love with her, little by little, there's a hole in my heart that starts to grow along with thi

If you love someone, you'd always want to share all the good things with that person. Now, all I want to do is lie down and feel how the world slowly turns. It's going to be pretty awesome if I can have her beside me while listening to either some piano or violin instrumentals. I think that can't be any better. However, that's impossible to happen, and so I'm stuck here listening to Pantera, Sepultura, Metallica and other metal bands hoping to be put on trance and forget how her absence is taking its toll on me. Tue, Jul 3, 2012 12:36:40 PM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I sometimes find it hard to believe That you aren't really for me Because why do I keep on going back Going back to your sweet memory I sometimes find it hard to see That we aren't really meant to be When I just can't see myself in the future Without you here beside me But I guess I know what this is Sweetie, this is what they call reality No matter how deep the love is You're really just too good for me Mon, Jul 2, 2012 1:21:31 PM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

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Look away from the darkness I duck away from the light I walk away from the sadness I can't say if it's right Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

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