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Mama will you miss me Just in case I’m already gone When I have finally set down Like the pale mournful sun Mama will you cry for me Like the way I cried because of you For all the days I felt unloved And all the pain you put me thru I don’t think so mama I don’t think you would Because for you I’m nobody I’m only half as good Mama I know You’ve never been proud of me Hanging gold medals on my neck Really never made you happy I don’t know how to please you And somehow make you care I don’t know why you treated me unkind And acted so unfair Mama remember that day You scold me till I bleed I beg you to stop But you didn’t hear my plead And when Papa tried to stop you You yelled him that I deserve it The pain is so severe then I rally can’t forget it But I’m older now And you can beat me no more Yet I still feel the pain Of the wounds you gave me before All insecurities I feel are all because of you I’m your own brood Mama But look at what you made me to You made it hard for me to believe

I feel like losing my control The Devil has possessed my soul save me now exorcist I caused so much pain than anyone You can say my heart is gone Save me now Exorcist Release me from these Demons I never wanted to be their spawn Set me free now Exorcist Exorcist save me Exorcist I need you Exorcist save me Exorcist I need you I’m trying to die now Save me now Don’t ever put the light out I’m trying to die now Set me free now Don’t ever put the light out

Now I know what time is it. It’s time to trot my way back home. I can’t still feel the ground as I take heavy steps out; out of this realm of frustrations that I thought was a road to her paradise. Each step I take seems to be a step farther from my dreams, simply because those are the steps that will lead me farther from her, my sole emancipator. Though reluctant to do so, I continue my walking. On my way, I see in my mind pictures of the scene I witnessed earlier. It plays on and on, over and over as if it won’t stop until it makes my brain burst out of my head. I managed to take few more steps before I find myself breaking down. I sat on the sidewalk then press my back on the wall oblivious of the dirt, dust and all those morons, I mean… people, staring at me. I still can’t accept what I saw and amidst my nothingness I heard a voice saying, “Are you ok?” I gave that stranger a pale look, clutched my fist then raise one of my finger. No, it’s not the one you raise while yelling that

What time is it? My watch says it’s 5:46 p.m. but my starving stomach disagrees for it keeps on telling me that it’s time for me to load him up for I haven’t eaten neither breakfast nor lunch, but I munched some banana chips though. My sleepy eyes, on the other hand, say it’s time for me to visit Dreamland for it has been three sleepless nights since I did considering that I am not a nocturnal creature even if I am starting to act like one; and I must admit, I’m not liking it. Lastly, my hardworking yet dead exhausted brain cells say it’s time for me to drop this newspaper for they can no longer comprehend. I’ve been sitting here, waiting for her for almost two hours now, clutching my virtue of patience that is about to slip away from me. I’m hungry, sleepy and restless yet still without any trace of reluctance in spending even countless hours staying foot in this place to have her caress my dull view.. The sun falls down thinning the crowd. The streetlamps start to light up as the a

I long for you, I long for but you There’s too much longing to see in these nostalgic eyes. I long for you, so bad. I long for you, I long for but you. My heart could only wish fro these tears not to fall. I lie without you, so sad. Couldn’t there be anything more between me and you? My days can’t begin without the sunlight only you can bring. My nights are endless, it’s but a sorrow. I cannot shelter myself from this longing for you. This emptiness made me succumb in my own loneliness. In this starless sky, can no see tomorrow. I long for you, I long for but you Will I wait countless days only to dry these tears? I long for you, so bad.

Kyokochan, I know we are seas and mountains apart But to get to you I can give wings to my heart From my Pearl of the Orient to your Land of the Rising Sun I’ll do everything to be with you my beloved Kyokochan Yet I’m afraid ‘cause with me you might not spend your time But I can spend mine for you designing these lines I can spend countless hours writing poems for you Hoping one day my words will touch your heart too Kyokochan, I know we’re busy roads apart But it’s so amazing how you touched my heart Even though you’re away so many miles I can see you smile each time I close my eyes Like the stars in the sky when the moon is unseen You light me up with your soul-pampering gleam Like the red river of life rushing though my veins You make my heart beat and call out your name Kyokochan, we may be two worlds apart But still I’m saving you a place here in my heart Forever you will bear this very special place It’ll be just here waiting for you always Come the day I’ll no longer see you

It was a bone chilling and muscle numbing January night, probably the worst night I can recall from my unwanted past. I just finished reading the book I bought two days ago that night but didn't understand a single line. At my despair, I turned my computer on and composed my own story. I managed to finish my first draft but ended up with another story that talks about death and sufferings. Lately I've been struggling to free my mind from these thoughts but the more I shelter myself, the more I find them breaking in to me. After some revisions on my work, I then decided to rest.I lie awake staring at the ceiling thinking about the day that just passed. It was just another day, a same old day that I got bullied by some freaks in our block on my way home but this time I decided to fight back, thanks to my courage I now have bruises in almost every part of my frail body. School was not good as well. Even before my fight with those bullies, my professor had already wage war on me. N

I never though this would go this far I never see it coming Now I don’t know who you are The pace keeps racing If only I knew then These things will happen I could’ve stop the clock from turning ‘Cause now I see, now I feel Another pain have been added on me Just another pain, just another stain Things will never be the same for me I never thought you would runaway I never see you leaving Now that you have gone away I’m left alone reminiscing I could’ve seen this I could’ve prevented this But it’s the price of every single shot I missed And now I feel, now I see Another rain is pouring over me Just another rain, now I’m drowning in this pain To get by, I need you here with me

this withered rose withered by the passing of time countless and inevitable its lifeless color expanding immensely to this room then outside to the starless sky this withered rose withered long since then long since before it bloomed its dullness so lyrical thousand words of sadness mournfully spoken without a sound this withered rose this once fragrant rose relinquished by the circle of divine indubitably forgotten appreciation is next to impossible nearly like a forsaken love this withered rose withered by the passing of time countless and inevitable its lifeless color already expanded to the starless sky then back to my piteous heart

As she walk I can see People smiling at her So unaware that those grin are fake She have much love to give So much kindness to share But so little to take People claim they know her But they do otherwise They only see what they wanna see They stab her back Lied straight to her face Put her down constantly They stick trashes on her name Left her with all the blame For whoever she became today But they don’t know her Nor the things she’ve been through And what drove her to be this way Never they’ll understand Never they even care To see what is really inside her Less than a little Is what they only know About the emotions she bear The ones she cared for The ones she trust Are also the ones who put her down After the pleasure After having what they want They just pushed her around Those people are morons Nothing but stupid idiots They good in judging people so fast They think of themselves As more than who they are Pretending unblemished with their masks “HYPOCRITE! FIRST REMOVE THE