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For the longest time, I think I've mastered the art of getting by. Living each day functioning well as how you should be is the way to survive life. Laugh as loud as you can, do silly things that will keep your adrenaline pumping and don't ever look back on things you've already left behind. I feel my life is all about sadness and pain, and that's how it really is but I don't mind. I can live each day doing what I do best - getting by, but sometimes, I just have to give in to sadness, I have to take off the gameface and stare at reality straight in its eyes. I miss her, more proper term would be, I long for her. I want to wake up one morning seeing her by my side. I want to feel her embrace in the middle of cold night. I want to be the reason behind her smile and her to be the reason behind my happiness. I want to live my life feeling her presence each and every day. I want to be with her but fate has been sealed - it will never happen. Truth makes me sad and ju

I let a pretty girl step in the elevator first. She said thank you then there were 30 floors of silence but I was surprised when she looked back and smiled at me before she stepped out. I guess chivalry is still being rewarded these days, LOL. Tue, Sep 25, 2012 8:02:33 PM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

So I deactivated my Facebook account just about an hour ago then someone asked me why. I replied, "I'm sick of what I'm seeing there, I may be just too old for that shit." I guess that pretty much is true. I guess I've outgrown the fuss of social networking and grew tired of all the drama and non-sense that I'm seeing, I've got too much drama on my own. I should start deleting some of the Facebook related apps eventually. I'm just too old for those shit. Sun, Sep 23, 2012 7:36:45 AM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I guess I miss you so bad, So bad it already hurts. But there's nothing I can do, Nowhere else to divert. And so I scribble some lines, Not knowing where it'll end. Going round and round in my head, With most twist and bend. Just like these thoughts of missing you, I find these words insane, Because no matter what I say, It won't take away the pain. I will still miss you day after day, It's a cycle to bear. What makes it worse, Is knowing you don't care. Mon, Sep 17, 2012 10:09:28 AM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

It's 5am and last night was another terrible night for me. It was a horrible day afterall so what can I expect other than that anyway. I decided to retire to bed early and when I woke up I took comfort in listening to loud music of Sevendust and Biohazard when all of a sudden I heard a knock on my door. I ignored it because I know it's my mother. I thought she'll think that I fell asleep with this music I'm listening to in full volume but the knocks on the door told me otherwise. It's irritating but I had to get up and there she was making my day much worse than how it already is. I love my family, they know the perfect timing to barge in and make things worse. I have the most fantastic family ever! Thank you Lord, you're really some motherfucking awesome god! Mon, Sep 17, 2012 5:32:47 AM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

It has been said that life is in fact a matter of choice - you choose what you do, you choose how you react, you choose how to proceed, etc. For all the things that happened, we're always left with a question "what now?" which isn't much of a rhetorical question if you'll ask me. So what now? So many things have been said and done. I'm tired of whining. I'm tired of feeling sentimental and acting like a retard. I'm sick of all these crap I've put myself into. I'm asking myself, what happens now? Life only gives us two options: either you carry on or you go fuck yourself and die. Please pardon my swearing, I just can't find a fucking way to put a fucking emphasis on that fucked up option. Going back, I guess the answer is obvious, all of us must carry on with our lives and stop being pussies. There's nothing much better to do anyway. Carry on with life regardless if you feed on sadness and misery each day. Continue living

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Maybe I miss your cheerfulness, Perhaps I miss the way you smile, So I take a quick escape from reality, And stay in your memories for a while. In there I can be with you, Oh those are the finest days. Just by being yourself, You changed me in many ways. A brighter point of view, As if I'm seeing life for the first time. I almost believe I'm yours, The same way you're mine. I had things planned in my mind, In due time I know they'll get real. Damn what the odds may say, All I need is this love that I feel. But of course I was wrong, So stupid I almost laugh at myself. How can I believe in those things, Now this can't be helped. Reality won't be on my side, I guess life is one playful kid. So I take a quick escape, Maybe this is all I need Sun, Sep 9, 2012 6:26:14 PM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Don't lose your composure Better keep your cool Watch out for your own words Or you'll be blabbering like a fool Swallow your sadness Keep your gameface on Just keep it to yourself Good days are gone Get by each day Tomorrow is another round Make sure you'll last long Stand steady on your ground It's fine if you're not ok It's ok not to feel so great Don't ask for too much Don't regret if it's too late Just keep your composure Maybe one day the tables will turn There's too much left to discover There's just too much to learn Sun, Sep 9, 2012 8:33:20 AM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

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I think it's the way smile Or maybe the joy in your laugh Perhaps it's the glimmer in your eyes When you stare, I can't get enough I think it's the shape of your lips Or maybe the sweetness of your kiss Perhaps it's the way you make me feel Each time you overdose me with bliss But whatever it is I just can't help it I fall for you over and over I just can't stop it I think it's the way love goes Out of line and twisted Too bad I can't be with you Had the chance but missed it Sat 8 Sep 2012 7:11:53 AM Sent from my BlackBerry? wireless handheld

After all of those things that were said and done, after the long process of logical thinking, in the end of each day, I still think of her. I can only guess how much, but I miss her. My bad. Mon 3 Sep 2012 3:00:43 PM Sent from my BlackBerry� wireless handheld

I hope everyday is my birthday. I found this photo from my gallery. Simple pleasure. I want some more. Sun 2 Sep 2012 2:46:16 PM Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

To see things clearer, you sometimes have to move and try to look at it in a different perspective. To simplify things, you should take away all the complex ideas and stick to the basics. Finally, to fully amuse yourself in a comedy, you should know where the joke is. I watched the two of them in a different perspective to see the better view. At first their situation feels so romantic and ideal but tragic at the same time. There's the woman who has been with her man for the longest time but one day another man came along breaking the monotony and then they fell for each other... in a wrong time and situation. Their love for each other is at the purest state of emotion i.e. being amoral - neither wrong nor right. The woman tried her best to keep their company without crossing the line. The man tried to do the same making himself believe that his idealism and romanticism will bring a newer light to things. However, no matter how pure and innocent their affection for each other is,

Time pass by so slow I hope it will just fly by Because my days are all about missing you Since the day you said goodbye Got stuck in your memories I hope there's something else to do But I spend all my hours Just wishing to be next to you I guess this is a hopeless case I'll just have to accept this You've gone and won't be back Love is crazy, forget this Sat 1 Sep 2012 9:18:26 AM Sent from my BlackBerry� wireless handheld