All You Can Do Is Stare

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I watch her with my mind's eye in this very monotonous and gloomy afternoon. As my stare wanders around the room, her memories seem to roam around in every corner of my mind. She who made me feel different after a long time, the special woman whose presence brought the most unique feelings and emotions I have ever felt, she who made me feel loved - her thoughts still linger, I just can't chase them away.

It was all lie, one lie after another and all misleading gestures - my mind suddenly interrupted my daydreaming. It was really foolish to believe that things can end differently when since day one, everything is already doomed to end up in the ugliest way. I was stupid back then, I guess things didn't change that much.

I watch her with my mind's eye as my recollections of her flood my remaining sanity. I guess this is just the price some of us need to pay.

Mon, Nov 19, 2012
17:19:25

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