BLOTS

People come and go. Too bad it's really something we must live with. It hurts to know that after a hearty promise of staying with each other, there are some who are forced by circumstances to break such vow. No decision is ever made in vacuum, that's one thing we must all understand. I promised to stay with her, she promised to stay with me, but I guess the best way to thank someone who had the guts to say that they will never leave is to let them break that promise one day. She broke her promise to me, now I'm breaking mine, my fault though. I shouldn't have made things more complicated but things can't be undone. I guess we must all live with the fact that good things do come to an end. I'm going to miss her for sure.

Ink flows once more when blood starts to drop Rhymes began to flow When the beating of heart stopped Pain's something to write on Oh damn I'm a poet once again There's a new beginning In something's bitter end

Oo, siguro nga wala talaga akong talent sa pagsusulat, di ko naman kasi talaga linya ang language and arts, pero nakakatuwa talaga kapag nakakatanggap ako ng kaunting compliment from my readers. Oh well, the mere fact na may nagtiyaga magbasa sa sinulat ko e nakakatuwa na talaga. Namimiss ko na tuloy magsulat. Hindi na ako magawa ng poetry ngayon, ewan ko ba kung bakit. I miss having something to write on, having someone to write for. Natutuyo na yung tinta ng ballpen ko, marupok na rin yung papel na sinusulatan ko, hindi ko na alam kung kelan pa ulit ako makakapagsulat. Dati halos araw araw nakakagawa ako ng atleast isang poem, kahit walang artistic value, atleast gawa ko, hahaha! Pero ngayon, lagi na lang akong hanggang first stanza, yung last poem ata na nagawa ko e para pa dun sa birthday nung kaibigan ko, that was Feb 6, ano'ng petsa na? Haaay... Gusto ko magsulat...gusto ko magsulat para sa "kanya", pero di ko magawa, nakakatakot kasi, baka makita ko na lang yung...

I've always believed when Lao Tzu said that loving makes you brave but it's being loved that makes you strong. I've grown weak as time pass.  I could've hold on for her. Fight for her. Fight what I know is right, but we all know when to stop.  The last drop of strength withered its way out of my system but there's just one more act that I need to do and it requires me to summon whatever courage and strength I may have left--that is staying out of her life. It will hurt me. It may also hurt her, yet it must be done atleast at the present time to prevent more hurtings. I love her and I'll give up everything to make her happy, I guess I've been saying this for the nth time now. I must be strong enough to back off.

There will be a time when you will be forced to give up everything you've ever wanted for the sake of greater good. Those are the times when you need to do what you need to do as opposed to what you want to do. You will be caught up in an ethical dilemma where, in the end, you'll just realize that you have to do the right thing. I guess that's where I am right now. I have never regretted the closeness that had transpired between us two, I never will. I'd give up everything for her to be happy and when I say everything, I mean everything. I think that's just proper. There are things that we just have to accept though it's so damn hard. Some situations will call us to sacrifice the most precious possessions that we bear. All for the sake of our beloved's wellness. All for the sake of greater good.

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss of her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it

For every moment of daylight when the sun touches my skin For every second of night time when coldness freezes me within I yearn to feel your touch wanting to be close to you I long to be somewhere near Just for a second or two Praying to be next to you Never wanted something so bad Been so far from you, my muse Never thought life can be so sad So many thoughts kept inside Filled with words kept unspoken I'm aware time is running out Must I have the silence broken And say the words like 'I adore you' You're the one most dear But you choosing to walk away Is one that I absolutely fear